There are way too many ‘weeds’ in the garden of my consciousness.

It is time to think about the things I spend my time on, and the impact they have on my goals, instead of just allowing my ‘I’s to rule my life with every fleeting whim they have.

‘Just watch one show .. then meditate / study / whatever.’

‘Plenty of time. Watch another show.’

‘OK, no more tv. How about you read forums for a bit?’

‘I know we’re not hungry, but I feel like eating something; then we’ll study!’

‘Listen to me today, you can always drop me tomorrow – yeah! that’s a good idea, if you let me run the show – just for today, it will be easier to get rid of me tomorrow!’

As I write these out, I can see that they make absolutely no sense. Why would allowing my I’s to run the show today make it easier for me to move passed them tomorrow? The truth is that it wont – it will make it harder as there will be a precedent set, a pattern that can be referenced everytime a similar situation comes up in the future. Each time the pattern is re-enforced, it gathers strength, and requires more awareness to disconnect from.

The reason I continue to listen to these ‘I’s is that part me still identifies with them. It believes that ‘I’ want to do these things. That’s why they’re called ‘I’s I guess.

Time to get rid of some of these ‘weeds’.