I was having a conversation in msn earlier today with a fellow Navigator, and we were talking about that place you might find yourself in, where you look around and notice that people near to you may seem to have more interests in their lives, more things going on; their lives seem more structured, fuller, more organized. Basically that moment when your ‘I’s see that you’re not like the world around you, and they make you feel somehow less for it. Like you are somehow losing at life because you don’t measure up to the reality you see projected around you.

 

So we chatted about it for a while, and afterwards they suggested I write a blog about it. I was going to try and re-shape what I had said into a more suitable format, but I didn’t want to alter the frequency I drew the information from by re-arranging it too much, so I have cut and paste a copy of a segment of our conversation, and removed the names of people other than myself. Please excuse the swearing, and I appreciate that this may not apply to everyone, but we thought that if we got something out of it, then there may be some other navigators out there who could benefit from it.

 

Before the first snippet from me, they had mentioned what I said previously; that their ‘I’s had been feeling like they didn’t have enough interests, that other people around them were doing ‘better’ than them.

 

Pete says:

I understand. But that’s what makes you so good at this.. You attack it with such a ferocity, such a zest for life, that the walls of reality crumble under your will. If we were as ‘balanced’ as many of the people in the rest of the world, do you think we would progress so quickly?

Pete says:

In many ways, it is our flaws that allow us the speed to move. We are like guerilla warriors, who have turned their weakness into their strength.

Navigator says:

dude

Navigator says:

you rock

Navigator says:

i can feel the weight coming off

Navigator says:

but its like

Navigator says:

i cant convince myself of the truth of it

Navigator says:

i cant ‘see’

Navigator says:

right now

Pete says:

Ok. The force gave me a gift a while ago, and I’m gonna try and share it with you.

Navigator says:

appreciated bro. im really touched at how you launching yourself into this to help me

Pete says:

It’s nothing my friend. Brother’s until the end.

Navigator says:

you’re like a fucking prana sun and all the darkness in me just cant take it

Pete says:

Everything in your life that you have ever felt remorse for, or that has eaten you up inside, or that you feel shame for … all of it.. Imagine it flashing before your eyes, the emotion moving from your root chakra, and flowing to your chest centre, and they build and build and it’s like watching some fucked up movie. Then you explode into this vast ‘lightness’, where all you feel is love, you

Pete says:

are feeling the love of the Universe, how much it yearns for you to awaken so that it can feel you feeling it’s love again. All of these things you have done in your life shoot up from your chest centre and illuminate in this vastness of perfection, and you see that they were all perfect. They were all parts of the puzzle needed to get you here, to make you what the Force needed you to be.

Pete says:

The world is a computer program for making red cells. But sometimes, by tweaking with the program at the correct times, a higher intelligence can use it to create the right parameters to bring a superbeing through and have them awaken. Like cheat codes in a computer game … do you understand?

Pete says:

Take the example Eric uses about reverse thinking (if you’re trying to psychically move an object in this room, and something moves in another room, try to move the object in the other room) and apply it on a macro scale that is inconceivable to us.

Pete says:

That is the conspiracy God and your Navigator have made to bring you here. Imagine the foresight, the intelligence that requires.

Pete says:

Have you not noticed already that there have been times in your spiritual quest, or teaching, where there is this moment of awareness, of some seemingly unrelated thing from your past providing the perfect training to deal with this moment?