Tales from the road to awakening
21 Apr
The events that take place in this blog occur slightly after the chuning. To understand my state of mind (and the state of awareness we were all in at the time) you might want to read my previous blog Notes from the Eye of a Storm if you haven’t already.
So, the chuning had been over for a while, and I had finally psyched myself up enough to leave the main room (part of me didn’t want to leave the room, because it didn’t want the experience to end – boohoo for me right?
). I walked down the foyer and up to reception to get a replacement key for my door, and my (now former) coach Baard came up to me to get my attention. He then went to wander off, so I thought I would go see what he wanted. Apparently a group of people were going to the Vampire club (referred to in the ‘Only Hypermarket in playa’ broadcast), but he didn’t think I was suitably dressed, so he wasn’t going to mention it – I told him that I would go get changed, and I started to run back to my room.
Sprinting back to my room while that shifted was such a bizarre experience; my brain was still pretty fried, and the air was literally crackling with prana around me as my feet pounded the pavement; the air felt hot as it was burning in my lungs and the contrast of the cool night air on my skin as my body temperature escalated felt weirder than it usually does.
So I get changed, and head back to the main area, and find Mark waiting by the taxi rank for me, as the others have already headed in. So we jump in a cab, and fortunately Mark knows where to go, so he tells the cabbie the destination and we’re on our way. We got out of the cab a little before our destination, so that we could stroll along a bit and take in our environment. Now, as much as it was an enjoyable stroll, and there was an obscene amount of red and blue everywhere, not too much caught my attention on the walk. But the second we walked up to the door of the club, and paid the cover charge, it was like stepping into another world.
The entrance was like one of those padded leather or vinyl doors – like someone had taken a big thick couch cushion and spread it over the door, like the roof of a casket almost. When you open the door, you walk up this dark hallway, where the only lights are these tiny bright blue globes that line each side of the walkway (think those lights along the corridors in movie theatres, but a little bigger, waaay brighter, and a white / blue tinge). This then opened up into a square room that was kind of dark, but still illuminated a little by the blue light, which had a red curtain sealing off the next room.
Then, through the curtain and is a bar that has an almost totally red colour scheme (admittedly, this one was pointed out to me, as I was so in awe when I first arrived and walked through I didn’t notice). You then walk out onto this balcony / open area, that has a series of half moon shaped, cream cushion seats that make up a circle around a pole in the centre of the room that stretches up to shade netting, that hung down above us like a really open tent. There was a bar to the right, and there were tables along the balcony walls. The colours out here were far more neutral, except for the red and blue lights that were projected intermittently onto the sails / netting above us, giving off this cool illumination. By this point, we had bumped into Highermind, and we were trying to forge our way through the throng of people filling this popular dance floor and crowding around the bar as the music filled the night air with deep, rhythmic base and distinct, high-pitched melodies on a busy Friday night. After fighting our way past the crowds, we managed to find Baard and the others, and we all sat down and decided to kick back for a while, and look for any details that stood out. We were hoping to observe some of the beings spoken about in the Hypermarket broadcast, and also enjoy a night out with fellow white cells.
After a little while, we moved onto some of the seats in the central area (the half moon type seats in the centre of the dance floor) and sat there chatting while being aware of our surroundings.
As a little bit of time started to pass, we started to have more room to move, and I didn’t really think anything of it at the time, but this was a popular club at 1am on a Friday night on 5th Avenue, so it should have been getting busier – not quieter! But we keep hanging out, trying not to be too obvious as we try to search for someone ‘out of the ordinary’.
It was at about this point that Baard, Tina and Philip started laughing at Highermind who was standing in front of us dancing – I looked to see what they were laughing at, and Highermind was ever-so-subtly incorporating the Hand-of-hands into his dance moves! At this point, the extra room we had in the club went from something you casually noticed, to ‘OMG! Where did all the people go?!?!?!’. I am telling you – around the central seating area was absolutely PACKED when we got there, and now it was essentially empty! The people that were still there were standing around the sides (as far away from us as possible, lol) and the entire cushioned area that stretched around the pylon in the middle was empty; except for the segment we were on which made up about ¼ of the seating area, if that. After we all realized what was going on (which was essentially that after the chuning we were radiating the Force so strongly, our combined tonals ‘flushed the club’, so to speak), we all had a laugh, but after a while decided we weren’t gonna see much action here, so we went and got some pizza and hit the shisha bar across the street.
20 Apr
Note: the following few paragraphs are things I have learned through personal experience of using the methods discussed in the Power of Now with my HBI training, I am by no means saying this is definitive – it is just my perspective based on my own personal experiences. Your mileage may vary.
Ok, so let me start by saying that I have a deep respect for Eckart Tolle, and I was involved with his stuff before HBI and it really helped me with surrendering a lot of pain and I experienced what I perceived at the time to be some deep states of awareness (but they were like ripples on the surface of a bottomless ocean it turns out, lol).
That being said, I think there is a HUGE difference between the way Mr Tolle teaches body awareness and the way Eric does – and if you are just using Mr. Tolle’s method then you are cheating yourself out of some good stuff.
What is the difference? Ok, it’s been a while since I’ve read the book, but Tolle talks about entering the energy field of the body, and feeling its awareness. At first, this sounds similar to what we do during meditation right? Well, yes and no. Yes, in that we also practice body awareness, be it at a more refined level (ie – focus on the chakra’s instead of the body in general), but we also have an awareness / intent of collecting prana – which is the most important thing. Eric teaches that if you are not aware of prana, you’re ability to draw it in is severly limited.
Ok, so that covers the basics right? If we take our higher balance knowledge and combine it with Tolle’s techniques for body awareness, we should be a golden prana sponge right? In short – no. I mentioned before that if you were just using Tolle’s body awareness when Eric says be aware, that I believed you were cheating yourself and now I will explain why. Eric talks about the brain shifting to higher gears when you force it to absorb more data – you need to push your organic brain beyond it’s processing limits so that it has to tap into something higher to deal with the demands you’re putting on it.
So, the difference between Eric and Tolle’s technique is this – Tolle focuses on internal body awareness; Eric teaches us to be aware of as much of our body at once as we can be – how it feels, how the environment we are in feels as it interacts with our body (be it through temperature, furniture, etc) essentially forcing our brain to take it far more data from the surrounding environment than we normally would, which forces our brain to shift into a higher gear to process all the data, which allows us to take in more and more subtle data, which shifts our awareness higher and higher. So. Awesome.
Ironically, when you’ve trained yourself in Eric’s method, if you ever try to use Tolle’s method, you will automate into Eric’s.
9 Apr
During a meditation today, I had a profound dimensional realization that for some reason manifested itself holographically in my awareness as a new layer of understanding of the Matrix trilogy as it relates to our journey as white cells. I have difficultly verbalizing the how or the why, but for me at least, the awareness and the understanding within me dimensionally simultaneously created and is linked to this understanding of the Matrix movies, so my hope is by sharing the understanding of the movies, I am able to reverse engineering the dimensional understanding that goes along with it.
Please read with your chest and be mindful that this was a freeflow of data so it might not be exact to the movie (or our journey).
In the beginning, Neo (the Middle Pillar) is asleep, until Morpheus (his Navigator) helps him to eventually have the first realisation that he is more than what he appears to be and moves beyond the matrix into the Real (begins to experience dimensional consciousness). He then alternates between dimensional consciousness and the Matrix (the DO) so that he can help the progression of the matrix. The agents (I’s) try to stop him from progressing until eventually at the end of the first film, he is able to reach a level of awakening through mindfulness (stopping the attacks from his I’s as they are made, i.e. – the bullets) and overcoming his I’s (by going into the fully – where he jumps into the Agent and explodes).
In the second film, his I’s receive an upgrade (the Agents get better), and he continues his journey of awakening through having more control over his mind, his internal matrix (flying, etc).
During his journey, he interacts with many I’s within himself, some of which are jackets for the consciousness of Gaia and some of which are jackets for his own higher consciousness trying to lead him to something greater (such as the Oracle). He eventually meets Gaia (in this case represented in the confrontational masculine form of the Architect) and has to battle with his emotional I’s vs his spiritual I’s (Gaia tries to make him see the logic of not following his Navigator, in this instance represented by his love for Trinity).
The rest of the second film and then third film revolve around his battles with himself and the Darkside in the Matrix, as well as within himself and the dimensional world (The Real) (these battles are represented by the battles with the machines dimensionally and the Smith’s within the Matrix). Until eventually he faces the Darkside and his I’s in the final battle, which he overcomes through surrender until he becomes one with both the dimensional world and the Matrix, thus reaching enlightenment and merging with the totality of God. Existing in both world but belonging to neither.