There’s this really interesting thing that’s been happening with my meditations lately … I’ll meditate, and then once I finish, it’s like the experience of a portion of the meditation evaporates from my mind .. It’s not like falling asleep while meditating (although I must admit, I have done that before, that’s kinda how I know that’s not what this is). It’s just like the experience goes ‘pzzzt’ as soon as I finish meditating and I go on with my day, wondering what happened in my meditation.

That was probably a pretty confusing wall of text, so I’ll try and describe it better. Bear in mind, that today the experience came back a short while after the meditation, so I can now finally understand at least a little of what has been happening lately. Anyway, now that I can recall the experience, I wonder how I could forget it! It was like I was bathed in this light, and everything that had _ever_ happened in my life made complete sense; all of the things I felt guilt for, or shame for, or regretted; I saw them in a completely different light. I saw that there was no other way it could have happened – that variables had been inserted at precise times in my life to bring about certain events. It’s almost as if by inserting these variables into my life, the program of my existence was somehow altered.

I kind of work / study in software development, so I guess that’s why I see it as programming, but the only way I can describe it is like this – You have this program. This program makes a red box. It always makes a red box, because that’s what it was created for. Over time though, the program gets more complex, and it starts to require more and more variables to create a much more complex object, but at the end of the day, that object is still a red box. But there are so many variables now, and the more variables that come into being, the more opportunities for deviation there are. So, over a long enough time period, people learn that if you manipulate enough variables in the correct way, if you exploit enough bugs in the system, you get a blue hammer.

Ok, if I read between the lines on that last paragraph, I basically said that the intricate way that the tapestry of my life has woven itself together, has made me a blue hammer, instead of a red box… wtf?

Anyway, it was a beautiful experience, and I am sorry that I could not express myself better in this instance. I may try again soon.

Oh, and for the Mayan Prep log -
So far, 110mins of med.
10 mins Energy Movements.

Okay, so there are now officially 8 weeks until I leave for the HBI event Mayan Storm in Cancun, Mexico. Not only am I extremely excited about meeting other white cells (friends I’ve already made and those I am yet to make), I have also put my name down for a personal 1 on 1 with Eric.

To ensure I get the most out of Mexico, I have put together a ‘routine’ with Aaron, that we will both use to try to get in the best ‘shape’ dimensionally as we can. I will also be running an extended physical fitness plan along with this, to be in the best physical shape that I can.

I will attempt to make daily entries here regarding my progress.

The HBI routine is as follows:
- 1 hour 30 mins meditation each day

- 1 HG session per week

- 5 x Energy Movements session per week (15-25 mins)

- Be aware of prana and be as conscious as possible through the day

In the interest of keeping this blog to it’s original purpose, I wont be focusing on documenting my physical fitness goals, or my school related goals (which at this moment is just to do the bloody assignment I’ve been putting off that’s due on monday, lol) and progress here..

Ooo. And I also need to come up with some questions for Eric that must be about spiritual matters, and not psychic type things.

Progress so far today -
138 mins meditation.